 Trust is one of the most difficult things to build in ministry. Not just earning people’s trust, but also trusting people. I am not sure the exact reason for it, but it is real. Silent criticism, unexpressed complaints, comparison to other ministries, the list of insecurities that try to cripple into my heart are endless.
How am I supposed to keep doing what God calls me to do when I struggle to trust and earn the trust of the people He has called me to minister? This is how ministry works, it requires high levels of vulnerability in an environment where people often have high (and sometimes unspoken) expectations. In ministry, you aren't just judged on your skills, but on your character, your family, and your private life. That creates a natural defensive wall that makes "trusting others" feel like a safety risk. You must know you are called. I often land in simplicity when trying to make sense of the complexities of ministry. For example, I think trust is a gift and not something I must earn. While credibility is built over time, I can’t force people to trust me. Sometimes, the healthiest move is to be consistently myself and let the "earning" happen at their pace, not mine. And many times, some people will never trust me. Another thing I have to consistently remember is that my ability to lead does not depend entirely on people’s approval. When I have tried to lead that way I burn out. I must remember I have been called by God. My trust is in the Lord who called me. This calling is affirmed by God through the Church and leaders above me. If I am ever out of line then that’s a different story. The call keeps me focused. If the call is certain, the fluctuations of the people become "weather" rather than "climate." Insecurities thrive in the dark. But when we learn to identify those as intruders, our identity will be protected. If you have been called, stay focused. Lead with confidence. Take the break. Send the text. Make the phone call. Call the meeting. But above all things, preach the Gospel. '12 Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already arrived at my goal, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13 Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14 I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. ' -Philippians 3:12-14  Have you ever caught yourself thinking you've got it all figured out? That your success is entirely your own doing? That you deserve the recognition, the position, the honor? We all have moments where we believe we're the center of our own universe.
If the Earth were the size of a basketball, the moon would be about 30 feet away, and the sun would be 2 miles distant. And that's just the beginning of an incomprehensibly vast cosmos. We are not the center of the universe. Not even close. In Matthew 20:20-28, we find a story that reveals just how easily we can miss the point of following Jesus. The disciples had been walking with Christ for years, witnessing miracles, hearing profound teachings, and experiencing transformation. Yet when Jesus told them He was heading to Jerusalem to be crucified and raised on the third day, what happened next is almost comical in its misunderstanding. James and John's mother approached Jesus with a request: "Grant that one of these two sons of mine may sit at your right and the other at your left in your kingdom." Talk about ambitious parenting! This mother wanted the best for her boys—the positions of highest honor and authority in what she imagined would be Jesus' earthly kingdom. But she had no idea what she was actually asking for. She was unknowingly requesting that her sons be crucified alongside Jesus. Jesus' response cuts to the heart of the matter: "You don't know what you're asking." How often do we pray for things without understanding what we're truly requesting? How frequently do we ask God to align His will with ours, rather than surrendering our will to His? When the other ten disciples heard about this request, they were furious. Instant division erupted among people who had been united in following Jesus. This is what self-centeredness always does—it creates problems where there were none, manufactures division where there was harmony, and breeds resentment where there was peace. Self-centeredness is the root of most conflicts in marriages, families, friendships, and churches. When we're focused on being right, getting recognition, or securing our position, we inevitably damage relationships. A self-centered life will never produce healthy, lasting connections with others. The church was barely getting started, and they already had internal conflicts driven by ego and ambition. Sound familiar? Two thousand years later, we still struggle with the same issues. Jesus called a meeting to address this problem and teach a principle that would define His church forever: "You know that the rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and their high officials exercise authority over them. Not so with you. Instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be your slave." This is the paradox of the Kingdom of God. Greatness is found in servanthood. Leadership is expressed through humility. Influence comes through sacrifice. Everything is upside-down compared to worldly systems of power and recognition. Jesus wasn't offering a new management technique or a clever strategy for advancement. He was revealing the very nature of God's kingdom—a kingdom where the last are first, where the humble are exalted, and where the servant is the greatest. Just two chapters earlier, in Matthew 18, Jesus had placed a child in the midst of the disciples and declared, "Unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven." What does it mean to become like a child? Children are naturally self-centered—they don't need to be taught to say "mine!" But that's not what Jesus was referring to. He was pointing to a child's complete dependence on others for care, provision, and protection. As we grow up and achieve success, we begin to think we're self-made. We attribute our accomplishments to our intelligence, our hard work, our connections. We forget that everything we have—including life itself—is a gift from God. Jesus calls us back to that posture of total dependence, recognizing that we owe Him everything because He gave His life for us. Scripture is clear about God's stance on pride: "The Lord detests all the proud of heart" (Proverbs 16:5). James 4:6 tells us that "God opposes the proud but shows favor to the humble." That's a sobering reality. God actively opposes the proud. Not ignores, not merely dislikes, but opposes. Meanwhile, He pours out grace on the humble. The religious leaders of Jesus' time did many right things externally, but their attitudes and motivations were corrupt. They performed acts of righteousness to be seen by others, seeking public recognition rather than God's private approval. Jesus saw through their pretense. We might be able to fool others with outward appearances, but we cannot fool God. He sees our hearts, our motivations, our hidden agendas. The good news is that when our hearts are aligned with His, our actions naturally follow. Christ-centered attitudes produce Christ-centered actions. Philippians 2:3-11 provides the perfect model for Christian living: "Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others." Then comes the powerful example: Jesus, "who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage; rather, he made himself nothing by taking the very nature of a servant." Think about that. Jesus, the Creator of the universe, the One through whom all things were made, chose to become a servant. He didn't cling to His divine privileges or use His position for personal gain. Instead, He humbled Himself to the point of death on a cross. And because of this radical humility and obedience, God exalted Him to the highest place and gave Him the name above every name. Jesus said, "Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me." Daily. Not once at a salvation altar call, but every single day. This is the ongoing work of discipleship—dying to self-centeredness and living for Christ. It means checking our motivations constantly. Would I do this if no one was watching? Am I serving to glorify God or to receive recognition? Am I seeking His will or trying to bend His will to mine? These are uncomfortable questions, but they're essential for spiritual growth. Imagine what would happen if an entire church community truly embraced servant leadership. What if we stopped jockeying for position and started looking for opportunities to serve? What if we valued others above ourselves and genuinely sought their interests before our own? The world desperately needs to see this kind of community—a people who love sacrificially, serve humbly, and follow Jesus radically. Not a perfect people, but a people being transformed by grace, daily surrendering self-centeredness for Christ-centeredness. God's grace is always pursuing us, not just to save us from sin, but to make Jesus the Lord of every area of our lives. He wants to strip away the self-centeredness that causes division, the pride that creates conflict, and the ego that prevents us from truly loving others. The path to greatness in God's kingdom is clear: become less so He can become more. Humble yourself so He can lift you up. Serve others so you can reflect the heart of the One who came not to be served, but to serve and give His life as a ransom for many. What would happen if today you shut the door on self-centeredness and fully opened your heart to His lordship? What conflicts might be resolved? What relationships might be healed? What joy might flood your soul? The choice is yours. Less ego, more Jesus. It's the only path to true greatness. |
Welcome!So glad you're here. I'm a pastor who's been at it since 2013, and I just recently planted roots here in Houston. You can find me pastoring out in Atascocita, in the northeast part of the city. Consider this spot my digital notebook for afterthoughts from my Sunday messages. I'm hoping these reflections serve as a boost, helping to grow your faith and encourage you on your journey. |
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